no more obsessing......

food-obsession

soooooo exactly 25 years ago next month, i was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes.  i was 18 years old and on my way to the USA the next year as an exchange student.  my parents had to drive 2 hours from the farm to Pretoria's Hendrik Verwoerd Hospital with me in the middle of the night because i went into a coma.  i was in a coma for 3 days and then they diagnosed me.  my pancreas had stopped producing insulin.  i cried when i was told that i had to now give myself 4 injections per day and i cried even more when i was told that i was not allowed to eat sugar again...........  imagine going to the USA where donuts are sold on every corner and i was going to be the only person in the world who was not going to be allowed to eat one!  my life was over!

my life was not over - and i thank the Lord today that He sent the most wonderful people along the way to help me those first few months - to realise that the needle was my friend - actually my life - so to speak - and how to adjust to being a young adult with Type 1 Diabetes Mellitus.

at first i was very cautious with what i ate - but when i saw that i was not going to die when i ate something "wrong" it got easy to manipulate my insulin intake.  i was told to eat everything low fat, fat free, whole grain and stay away from too much protein as it would cause my body to go into ketoacidosis, which is horrible.  i never wanted that to happen!  eating low fat and fat free, however, caused me to have LOADS of hypoglycemia episodes - and the only way to counter that, is to eat something that spikes your sugar.  so i was in a viscious spiral of eating the correct, "healthy" foods, having a "hypo" on almost a daily basis and then having to eat something to get me out of the hypo....... i hated hypo's - they left me drained and exhausted.  but they were also an opportunity to eat the foods that i was not allowed to eat............ and so, over the next 25 years, i started gaining weight.  i had never been super skinny - but i was not grossly overweight.  a few years ago i realised that i needed to lose weight - seriously.  so i tried everything.  i was not allowed to join Weigh Less as a Type 1 Diabetic, but i could buy the plans.  nothing worked - all the plans were low fat and fat free and supposedly HEALTHY but it just caused me to keep gaining weight and have hypoglycemic episodes.  i joined a gym, did water aerobics, ate nothing, ate a lot of "nothing food" like lettuce etc and drank a lot of shakes............... 

and then i saw a photo of a friend on Facebook beginning of 2014.  she had lost over 30kg.  i asked her HOW..........  she told me that she was "banting" - now to me that was a swear word!  how can anyone eat copious amounts of FAT, MEAT etc and stay healthy and lose weight???  there is no way!  but i was desperate, so i tried.  i started preparing food in real butter ( believe me - with DISGUST) and put cream in everything.  my husband thought he had gone to heaven.....  i did not lose any weight, but i also did not gain any in about 3 months and i started to feel a little less lethargic and slept better.  but i knew that i needed HELP to actually know how much to eat and how to prepare the food. 

a lady in my fellowship group gave me a book "The Wheat Belly"  which i read and it all started to make sense to me.........  why i was not losing weight even though i was eating HEALTHY food............

i have to check Facebook regularly in my line of work, and i kept seeing these posts about The LCHF Banting Group.  i asked them to mail me details.  this was on 19 september 2014.  i paid a VERY small amount and received an eating plan with a list of what and what nots as well as the correct quantities.  it looked too easy......... 

within the first 2 weeks i had lost 3 kg.  by december 2015  i had lost 18kg (in less than 3 months) - without breaking a sweat.  in February 2015 i went for my annual check up.  my GP was happy to see me thinner, but a little "iffy" when i told him HOW i had lost the weight....  i asked him to do the bloodwork so that we could see.  all my tests were perfect.  blood glucose, HBA1C, cholesterol, kidney function, liver function - all of it.

my biggest problem was buying clothes now....  i still had 20 kg to lose, and i did not want to buy clothes every 2 weeks.  so i decided to stop eating according to the plan, and just eating foods on the list, when i was hungry. 

to everyone out there - i stopped "dieting" end of March 2015 and i have just been "eating" - i have lost another 7kg and i am trying to NOT lose weight now until summer time, but that is not easy.......... i even had one of Lee Anne's HEAVENLY cupcakes last week!!!

i used to be obsessed with what went into my mouth - i never let that on though, and i just would eat whatever was put in front of me, but in my mind i then had to figure out HOW much insulin would be needed to counter the pasta, bread, sauce, etc that i just ate?  the stress of thinking that i might now have a hypo if i take TOO much insulin and i can't eat too late, or too early or whatever - my whole life was governed by FOOD................

of course this did not happen by myself - i give all the Glory to God for strengthening me when i was tempted to have a cupcake the first week, but He also blessed me with self control regarding food through the Holy Spirit - something i NEVER had - and although i had prayed that God would help me lose weight for many years, i now understand that only when i really started treating my body like the Temple of the Holy Spirit, could He honour my prayer.......... 

our society obsesses about food.  we are addicted to bread, sugar, instant food - when to eat, when not to eat, how and where and what to eat, we take pictures of our food and post it on Facebook  - we are surrounded by smells and sights of FOOD..............

i am soooooo thankful that i am not obsessed with food any more and that i now know what is right for ME.  i am not saying that the way i am eating is the answer for everyone - but i am just so thankful that God brought that post to my attention.........  

i will never be a size 12 ( worried about all the wrinkles...........) but i just believe that i need to be a healthy weight - and no, i am NOT obsessed with WEIGHT now - i actually get a little upset when i lose weight at this stage - i just want to NOT buy new jeans until next winter!!

in conclusion - i am a living example that you can be healthy, healthy, healthy while eating good food that has NOT been processed a million times..... and that the Lord our God is concerned about ALL aspects of our being - not just our hearts and minds.......

1 Thessalonians 5:23
And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

 

 

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